Hello to anyone who could possibly care to read this.
I am just writing this journal to update you all on my life... it's been... alright.
Well, as of right now it is summer. When school starts back up I will be a sophomore in College. Crazy how time flies. For now, my major is Studio Art. But in the past I have changed it to undecided. I really don't know if art is what I am going to do in life, but it's what my parents seem is fit for me so...for the time being, that's what it is unless I decide otherwise. I thought of doing interior design at a different school in the state (my school and this one are practically one school, so they share majors, so I would have to attend the second one in order to major in ID...the other school is like 45 minutes away, if you drive fast enough.) But alas, I kind of figured out that even though ID is very interesting, I don't think it's right for me. I don't know, I want to do something awesome and I want to help people. I am just so indecisive about what I want to do in life, but I don't want to sit around wasting my time in college for something I might not major in. Anyways, yeah. I don't know. Also I don't think I ever really talked about it here, but my relationship went downhill. Not with the guy, really, but with him and my parents. A lot of shit got complicated and now we are on a break... or.. broken up. Whatever. I still have feelings for him and I obviously know he still likes me so. Very complicated, but as of right now we aren't communicating and I' not sure if we will. Also I very much dislike my brother because of a situation related to all of this and I don't really care if he sees this. To keep busy I have gotten a job, just at Victoria's Secret. I'm not sure if I like it a lot yet. My co-workers are nice and my tasks aren't a hardcore burden, but I'm usually a shy and quiet person so.....retail isn't totally the best place for me. But I'm giving it a go, so we will just have to wait it out. I used to have 3 close friends, but now I really only have 1. We try to hang out whenever we can around our busy work schedules, it's nice to at least have SOMEONE to hang out with. The other two don't really try their hardest to communicate with us, so we have just kind of given up. Another way I keep busy is that now that I have a membership... I go to the gym. I am actually kind of typing this right now to avoid going to the gym before work...just because I am a moody piece of shit and don't want to do anything right now. As for art... I barely do it. I never finish things and if I do it's half assed. I want to get back into sketching and drawing but I always get art block or get fed up with how it looks from not practicing everyday like I used to... I'm just done with a lot of things, lol. Anywhooooooooo....I don't know what else to put here. Life is meh and I just want to travel and do fun things and have enough money to not care.
Listening to: Berlin - RY X